I was reading in my Message like a month ago in John 9…the one where Jesus meets a man who is blind from birth.  His disciples were curious to know who was at fault for it.  Jesus’ words especially struck me when I read it this time, like they never had before.  After they asked him about it, he replied with this:

“You’re asking the wrong question.  You’re looking for someone to blame.  There is no such cause-effect here.  Look instead for what God can do…” 

I think God made this jump off the pages at me when I read it because he knew I would need to be reminded of it in the near future.   It was only a few days later that I got the news about John and Jenn’s baby’s death and then a while after that I found myself in quite a dark valley in my journey.  It’s totally natural to want to blame someone, even if it’s just yourself.  But I love the flip he puts on it…I gotta remember the bigger plan and how God can bring such good things from the ugly.  When I think about John and Jenn’s road right now I just feel sick.  There was never a couple that deserved a healthy baby to love more than they did, but even in adversity they are sure to let God’s light shine through them, and that’s when it will be the most evident whose they are.  For me it’s hard to wait on God to see what he’s going to do.  But remembering that he does have a plan for me and knowing it’s going to be a big surprise is pretty hugely encouraging.  The places he’s brought me and things he’s taught me in the past 3 years in China were all surprises…I never would have guessed that was in the plan.  I have nothing to fear in my future.  God is good.

That’s all I got.  Night.